…And I'm back
…….But I've never really been gone, just low key.
So far the year 2013 has truly been the "Superman" ride at 6 flags, and for those that haven't gotten on, besides the ups & downs, one's heart pacing, the thrill, the laughter as well as the screams, and well, the tears for those that happen to open your eyes; the ride has been a blessing in disguise, and it's only March. I did just say that too freely, ONLY March, I'll take that back, IT'S ALREADY MARCH? Wasn't it just new years?
It seems like time just scapes me sometimes; it flashes. It's scary to realize that my last blog with you all was in August.
An overwhelming amount of things have happened since then. Since then, truly, I am no longer who I use to be. Change is inevitable for experiences shape us to be the people that we are today. So what has changed? And has it been for the better?
A lot & Yes
A lot has changed my friends, and for the better. The low points in one's life are lessons to allow us to grow, and of course for one to become stronger; at least for me. I've always been hesitant to share aspects of my personal life to the world, but this is not the case in this scenario, for I feel many of you will be able to relate. So here it goes. I've always heard of people dying unexpectedly, I mean it's on the news all the time, and you hold sympathy for those families, but when it happens to you, it's so different. When you know the person, their unexpected death leaves you feeling some kind of way. It's crazy that I'm not able to describe the feeling. But as crazy as this sounds, I am able to smile again, and soon, maybe too soon, because I know that it was God's will. My spirit is much stronger than what it use to be. Since I've last written, this is one of my MAJOR POSITIVE CHANGES. Discovering me, my soul, and not what the world sees, or perceives me based on my physicality. Within these last couple of months, even when my back has been against the wall, things just end up working out. See then, I would stress it, or I would get extremely mad about it, and I'm not saying that I don't stress out now, and well Dahiana not getting upset is a crazy thought because there are just some stupid people behind the wheel, and in this world altogether, but the amount of me feeling this way throughout my days has decreased significantly. I can say that my patience level still is no where near perfect, but it is better.
As I continue to share these aspects with you, more things come to mind. The people I no longer talk to, the new people that are truly a blessing and will be for the rest of my life, those I haven't seen or heard from in years but reached out and want back in, and then there's the one I thought was absolutely incredible and different from the rest but they just so happened to be just like the rest of them. Lesson since my last blog, do not ever change your values, your ways, your thoughts, for another person….EVER!!!
Oh and ladies, you know when that little voice tells you to leave the man alone because he isn't good for you, LISTEN!!! My God, do not be hard headed like me! Which brings me to my next POSITIVE CHANGE… I'm listening a lot more to my inside voice, which I ignored way too often and has gotten me into too many quarrels. It's amazing how many times I smile now because I listen to myself, and don't find myself saying " I knew I should have listened to my inner voice…."
So that was a bit on the personal. On the flip side, my life as an entertainer is constant. Since Pain Love & Passion's submission to eleven film festivals, I've gotten a chance to go on more auditions and gigs, and well rehearsals. Now it's marketing time for the film, getting our package ready for the Boston International Film Festival, which will be showing at the Loews Theatre/AMC Boston Common in April. More information to follow on this because I need everyone there. The goal is to have every seat occupied. It is auditions, rehearsals, and work, for me, which you will all get to see in its according time. Now, after two years of non theatrical performance, that all changed on Monday, February 19th. I had the honor to perform with J.D. Lawrence at B.B. Kings on Broadway in the comedy Your Husband Is Cheating On Us. Hard to believe, that the last time I was on stage was so long ago when I performed A Grandmother's Prayer with TyLow Productions. The change from theatre to film/tv will always exist, the feeling, the vibe from the audience; truly exceptional. I felt so blessed to be able to be back on that stage; another indescribable feeling, but this time of an overwhelming amount of joy.
You know what's always so good too? To work with good people that believe in you and are there for you when you need them. That's how I feel about William Smyth. For those of you that don't know who he is, besides being the director of photography for Pain Love & Passion, he is also my photographer, and my friend. I just had to say something about him on this blog because, truly he has just helped me out so much within this last year. I love working with people that value your time and your talent. But I feel like I'm going to start getting all sappy, so I will stop there. I mean you all now, I'm a soldier, so that sentimental stuff stops now. Besides when it comes to naming people that support my craft and truly believe in me, I'll be here typing for another hour.
Overall, my life focuses on MY DREAM OF AN ENTERTAINER (This will never change)
And my FAMILY, my REAL FRIENDS
The goals for 2013 are set, and thus far, I've been blessed. So remember just because I've been low key does not mean that I'm not working.
In fact, it's the other way around. The fire is still burning, and the passion will never die.
Remember that I WAS BITTEN BY THE ACTING BUG & I DON'T EVEN WANT THE CURE!
Until next time, be good, be true, and God bless you!
Dahiana Torres "The one & only" Signing off