Who's that girl with the big forehead ?
I never know how to start off my blogs, but without too much thought this time..
HERE IT GOES...Be warned that there is no order, but just random thoughts of what has been going on in my mind.
Caution: My mind can be pretty out there
I made it a goal to get a blog out this week. These past few months, I've been living off daily, weekly, & monthly goals, & I must say that writing it down & rewarding myself at the end of the month with something that I've always wanted (only if I accomplish the goals-- It's working for me. #TryIt ;)
I've been really blessed. I know that I say that in every blog, but it's a must for me, especially now more than ever. Things in life are moving, & they are only going to move even faster for me since I made a huge change in my life. So if I was landing gigs before, now it's going to look even better since I will have more free time on my hands. FEELIN' FREE & No one can stop me--
This summer has consisted of informercials, commercials, auditions, & rehearsals. Still looking to land a feature film however, consider it my last big goal for 2013. I've still been writing, but with life happening sometimes the writing isn't as often as I would like it to be. But this year is definitely going to end in an amazing way for me as a compensation for my hard work.
Change is inevitable. Is happening every single day for me. I've closed doors that needed to be closed; no regrets.
I've taken risks that I'd never thought possible. I'm not going to lie, the hectic schedule can sometimes feel lonely, but without sacrifice there is no gain. And I WILL GAIN. I will accomplish all that my heart desires. The way in which I accomplish this, however, has changed. The more days that are added to my youth, the more powerful realizations I have. My journey has taken a detour, but a detour for a better route.
Change of topic...
Sometimes I know that certain things shouldn't affect me as deep as they do. But I've thinking about Lee Thompson Young like crazy. I don't know... but for some strange reason, although I never met the kid, I just feel terribly sad over the news; deeply sad. I remember watching the Famous Jett Jackson on Disney, and being motivated by him to be on TV. I've been thinking about how people go about their lives and what may appear is never what really is. I've found it to be my new habit (as difficult as it may be), to smile often, even if I'm having a shitty day; to say hello to strangers, to greet those that appear to be having a bad day, to compliment those around you. As mankind, we should strive to love one another, try to help when we can, and serve when not asked. And helping doesn't mean financially, it means lifting up the spirits of those around us, and putting a smile on even the people that just annoy the crap out of us. This is one of the things that I am striving for everyday. I start to think as to why Lee Thompson took his life. What could have been so burdening to the point where he didn't feel worthy he should live anymore... I guess I'll never come to understand. Like could someone have said something to him that day to change his mind? Would an I LOVE YOU, have changed it. And not just for Lee Thompson but for all of those that are suicidal victims. Let's strive as a nation to care for one another. The person you criticize today may be gone tomorrow. What people wear or don't wear is none of your business. What financial circumstances they are going through may prohibit them from buying the nice clothes you have on your back. Turn the criticism into a realization of how truly blessed you are to have the nice clothes, to have the job that paid for those clothes, to have the education you were able to have to obtain the job, and the parent(s)/guardian(s), that put you towards the path of an education.
REALIZATION--- the clean air is a blessing. I've heard the war stories from the ex & some Marine/Army buddies.
They tell me how much they appreciate the clean air when they get back to the states. We take it for granted.
The sun is a blessing. The rain is a blessing. The free water is a blessing. The CLEAN water is a blessing.
We are blessed, let's cherish it.
...My mind... You were warned.
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WHAT DO YOU ALL THINK ABOUT THIS NEW LOOK???
AFTER THE COLORS OF LOVE THE PLAY, I MAY JUST GO FOR IT?
But God knows how many times I've sat on the chair for a cut and have only been successful once.
Maybe I'll end 2013 with a bang!
…And I'm back
…….But I've never really been gone, just low key.
So far the year 2013 has truly been the "Superman" ride at 6 flags, and for those that haven't gotten on, besides the ups & downs, one's heart pacing, the thrill, the laughter as well as the screams, and well, the tears for those that happen to open your eyes; the ride has been a blessing in disguise, and it's only March. I did just say that too freely, ONLY March, I'll take that back, IT'S ALREADY MARCH? Wasn't it just new years?
It seems like time just scapes me sometimes; it flashes. It's scary to realize that my last blog with you all was in August.
An overwhelming amount of things have happened since then. Since then, truly, I am no longer who I use to be. Change is inevitable for experiences shape us to be the people that we are today. So what has changed? And has it been for the better?
A lot & Yes
A lot has changed my friends, and for the better. The low points in one's life are lessons to allow us to grow, and of course for one to become stronger; at least for me. I've always been hesitant to share aspects of my personal life to the world, but this is not the case in this scenario, for I feel many of you will be able to relate. So here it goes. I've always heard of people dying unexpectedly, I mean it's on the news all the time, and you hold sympathy for those families, but when it happens to you, it's so different. When you know the person, their unexpected death leaves you feeling some kind of way. It's crazy that I'm not able to describe the feeling. But as crazy as this sounds, I am able to smile again, and soon, maybe too soon, because I know that it was God's will. My spirit is much stronger than what it use to be. Since I've last written, this is one of my MAJOR POSITIVE CHANGES. Discovering me, my soul, and not what the world sees, or perceives me based on my physicality. Within these last couple of months, even when my back has been against the wall, things just end up working out. See then, I would stress it, or I would get extremely mad about it, and I'm not saying that I don't stress out now, and well Dahiana not getting upset is a crazy thought because there are just some stupid people behind the wheel, and in this world altogether, but the amount of me feeling this way throughout my days has decreased significantly. I can say that my patience level still is no where near perfect, but it is better.
As I continue to share these aspects with you, more things come to mind. The people I no longer talk to, the new people that are truly a blessing and will be for the rest of my life, those I haven't seen or heard from in years but reached out and want back in, and then there's the one I thought was absolutely incredible and different from the rest but they just so happened to be just like the rest of them. Lesson since my last blog, do not ever change your values, your ways, your thoughts, for another person….EVER!!!
Oh and ladies, you know when that little voice tells you to leave the man alone because he isn't good for you, LISTEN!!! My God, do not be hard headed like me! Which brings me to my next POSITIVE CHANGE… I'm listening a lot more to my inside voice, which I ignored way too often and has gotten me into too many quarrels. It's amazing how many times I smile now because I listen to myself, and don't find myself saying " I knew I should have listened to my inner voice…."
So that was a bit on the personal. On the flip side, my life as an entertainer is constant. Since Pain Love & Passion's submission to eleven film festivals, I've gotten a chance to go on more auditions and gigs, and well rehearsals. Now it's marketing time for the film, getting our package ready for the Boston International Film Festival, which will be showing at the Loews Theatre/AMC Boston Common in April. More information to follow on this because I need everyone there. The goal is to have every seat occupied. It is auditions, rehearsals, and work, for me, which you will all get to see in its according time. Now, after two years of non theatrical performance, that all changed on Monday, February 19th. I had the honor to perform with J.D. Lawrence at B.B. Kings on Broadway in the comedy Your Husband Is Cheating On Us. Hard to believe, that the last time I was on stage was so long ago when I performed A Grandmother's Prayer with TyLow Productions. The change from theatre to film/tv will always exist, the feeling, the vibe from the audience; truly exceptional. I felt so blessed to be able to be back on that stage; another indescribable feeling, but this time of an overwhelming amount of joy.
You know what's always so good too? To work with good people that believe in you and are there for you when you need them. That's how I feel about William Smyth. For those of you that don't know who he is, besides being the director of photography for Pain Love & Passion, he is also my photographer, and my friend. I just had to say something about him on this blog because, truly he has just helped me out so much within this last year. I love working with people that value your time and your talent. But I feel like I'm going to start getting all sappy, so I will stop there. I mean you all now, I'm a soldier, so that sentimental stuff stops now. Besides when it comes to naming people that support my craft and truly believe in me, I'll be here typing for another hour.
Overall, my life focuses on MY DREAM OF AN ENTERTAINER (This will never change)
And my FAMILY, my REAL FRIENDS
The goals for 2013 are set, and thus far, I've been blessed. So remember just because I've been low key does not mean that I'm not working.
In fact, it's the other way around. The fire is still burning, and the passion will never die.
Remember that I WAS BITTEN BY THE ACTING BUG & I DON'T EVEN WANT THE CURE!
Until next time, be good, be true, and God bless you!
Dahiana Torres "The one & only" Signing off
Hello Viewers, Fans, & My blog followers! I believe I am debt to you all with a more, in depth blog than the last ones I've shared. Looking back at those, I've let you down incredibly. So here I go...
For starters, I haven't shown you guys any fun lately. Here's a little story that will eventually lead into some fun. Allow you all to laugh at the stupid & goofy things that I do just because. I was showing my co worker a spoof that my ex husband & I put together (yeah, I divorced my screen husband, very sad but true, via Facebook anyways, most of you probably didn't catch it since my status is back to private & choose not to publish the relationship aspect of mi vida). Well then why am I posting here? I mean this is my space. Those that read my blog actually follow me vs. people that I met once on a project of some sort, and we never really keep in touch after the fact. And since I only have people that really care read my blog on my website, then I feel that it's okay to share a bit of thy self with you all. Soooo moving on, coworker is watching the video on my phone and he proceeds to another video and asks what it is. How rude huh? LOL. Just kidding Carlitos. So I showed him the video and he just died laughing. He mentioned that I should do video blogs. Not to dismiss the idea completely, but typing out my thoughts just soothes me more, and I can look exactly how I look now, A HOT MESS. So he laughed his ass off with the video, and Im making a complete ass of myself by now showing all of you. So here it goes. ENJOY! --
So Yes singing on the road is what I do. I believe every single person that gets in my car knows that. Who better knows it than 2 people that spend a lot of time in my car and/or around me. Derek McLaurin, the lead in my feature Pain Love & Passion. He passionately ;) loves the song Birthday Cake. I wonder Why?
And Lee Cowart is also secretly fond of the same song. In fact both of them love it so much, that when they get drunk, I open up my inbox to get messages like this one below.
EPIC! I KNOW !!!
It's hard to believe that August is here, and that 2012 is more than halfway over. Thanks to Crystal of the Black Latina Movement (remember her right, she's the reason I was in The Colors of Love - TV series). I had a photo shoot for the Movement. She's doing her thing too, but then again when is she not? That's her below with me "We truly are the Afro American Dream" Huge shot out to all the ladies involved, especially Miss Shirley & Apryl. But this isn't about them, it's about me. If we got into what they've been up, my blog would be forever; the ladies at BLM grind.
And well I couldn't leave you without a slideshow. As you can see I spend a lot of time in my car. Crazy driving hours with everything that's been going on. But my lil man is also in my life this summer. And let me tell you, I get home and it's hugs and kisses every time I walk through the door. Makes me want lil ones of my own (As I fake sneeze bullshit ;) Niece & Nephew home for the summer, a divorce, my sissy college roomate is getting married, the laughter, the stress, my life! I'm embracing every minute of it. Oh and those fireworks! These fireworks are a signature of the day that I met the "Fresh Prince" Will Smith, and the fam. Wait I have a video of that too-- Here is the performance at the Men In Black III premiere after party. Of course they aren't great videos but thanks to Steve, who looked me out with the ticket, I can't complain.
Pics of thy self, were taken, simply just because...
The bridge shot was taken when I had "Wide Awake" playing on my headphones and I so happened to look up and get this view. Uhm, last week as a matter of fact. Although I'm not quite where I would like to be with my career, I also know that I've come a long way; Leaving Rhode Island, following my dream, making sacrifices, and the birth of Pain Love & Passion. New York, I'm here, & I'm working!
The music, the view... I had a very brief emotional moment since I had finished parking my car and heading up to the studio to work with another editor of PLP.
At the end of the day, it always comes down to my baby PLP. So on that note I'll leave you with this video, as I share with you my point of view and standing of the film. And I need you....I always need my audience.
So that's the last of the videos.
Continue to keep me in your prayers as I continue my path towards getting on your tv screens.
Until next time, God bless and grateful.
Appreciate the journey, that's all I can say right now. Every experience, negative & positive, there's a lesson to be learned, & I continue to be grateful. Sometimes, it's better said than done. This is the life I chose. No regrets, no looking back, there is nothing else that I want to do with my life.
THIS IS ME!
Do not ask me when I'm going to settle down, if I'm going back to school, when I'm going to get married, & when am I gonna have kids. When it is my time, then it'll be my time. You live your life, and I'll live mine. Every person has a different journey, and I plan on traveling my journey the way that I want to. Because at the end of the day, Dahiana Torres is going to do what she wants to do. And If I make mistakes along the way, so be it, I'll learn!
There are exactly 2 more weekends of shooting Pain Love & Passion. I can no longer call this my baby, but OUR baby. This film has only been possible due to the great team that I have behind me, and everyone that has stepped up to make this happen. The list is so long, that it would be senseless for me to sit here and type every person's name, but they know who they are, and I'm simply grateful for your help and your contribution in making this film a reality with me. It has come such a long way from it's birth, and now it's development has more shooting and post production to go. One thing is for sure, I cannot settle as to having it be just okay, this creation must be amazing. If I allow it to be any other way I would let my team and myself down, and I refuse to be that person. I feel great about this project, about Ocean State Productions LLC, & the future projects that I have lined up.
Everyone's journey is different. Some people were born into their craft due to their famous parents, some people got lucky off one chance and never looked back, while others took centuries to get there. Whatever journey God has stored for me, I will not give up. Regardless of what others say, I will not settle. Every sweat and every tear has made me the person that I am today. God hasn't placed me on this ride without a great outcome. I trust HIM.
NEVER SETTLE...NEVER BASE YOUR LIFE ON "WHAT IF"
- Signing off
God bless yall
Dahiana Torres "the 1 & only"
Feeling like... randomly blogging.
It's been a long time since I've shared with my audience what's been happening in my life.
I know that lately it seems like I'm just too busy, but even in the midst of all that, I'm happy. I'm truly happy as to where I am now. Sure sometimes it can get lonely, waaaaait, too personal...let's take a different route. :)
I love someone for telling me that, well I can't remember the way he worded it exactly, but it was along the lines of only great things will come after this (referring to my downfall). You know that famous saying about there being a rainbow after the rain, at least he didn't word it like that, which I truly appreciated at the time because that rainbow mumbo jumbo sounds like some "Care Bear" animation talk to me. The point of the matter is that I'm on the ride, and I'm getting there. I know that I'm getting there because I'm continuously being blessed. Not that I wasn't before, but my outlook on life and on situations have changed, allowing me to look at things...oh who am I kidding?! I grew up! It's that simple...and I'm still growing, mentally & spiritually .
Putting Pain Love & Passion together (for those that know by know what this is, shame on you!) has allowed me to reconnect with people that I haven't spoken to in a long time. When I lay my head down sometimes I think about the people that love me in my life. I mean, yes, I've had my fair share of people that have disliked me, but everyone has those, overall, I'm loved. That is a blessing. The fact that some people believe in me so much motivates me even more to keep striving. My self motivation is a movement by itself, but with my fans, it makes me better ;) The way my family has stepped up by allowing me to use their homes, those that have volunteered to cook, those that have given donations, I mean, I've just never really seen it at such a large scale before.
The power of relationships is so vital to me. That has been a fact over and over again people. You think about any hurt or pain you put someone else through, because you may not know where that person will be some months, or years from now. Holding grudges shouldn't be something to even consider. Maybe satisfying for the time being, but sooner or later, it should be your intent as an adult, to work things out. It's like having clouds over your head and never allowing any sunlight to shine through. Oh shit I just made that up... wait I'm getting off track again.
Some sacrifices are happening, but I know it would all pay off in the near future. I've come along way, looking back isn't an option. I ask all of you to continue to support my dream. Check out my latest feature film @ www.painlovepassion.com We start filming in April 2012. If you're in my hometown Providence, RI I'll be home all of those weekends. Yes, working, but my line is always open. If there are any ways in which you feel that you can contribute in helping out with the film, and are SERIOUS about it, I'm all ears.
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Relationships? Husband/Wife, Boyfriend/Girlfriend, Brother/Sister, co-worker/co-worker. FOCUS: Business. Random thoughts & feelings... I literally just read a tweet that stated it should only be all business or all pleasure....hmmm, interesting. I hate when people get the shit twisted. I've seen it in pretty much every field, FOCUS: Entertainment Industry. Maybe it's just me but why is it that, as a female, one can see an attractive male on the set, or at a networking event, and be able to just simply talk business, without having to discuss that he is appealing when his looks are not relevant to the conversation. Why is it that she wants to discuss business with him, but by the end of the night he ends up asking what she likes to do for fun, which trails off into more "personal" questions? SHE DOESN'T WANT TO GO THERE WITH YOU! Well, atleast I don't. But what if SHE is interested? When is it okay to cross that line & ask those personal questions? Truth of the matter is, we as entertainers are so busy, that the only way to link up with someone is by associating ourselves with the ones we work with. Celebrities date other celebrities all the time. As a result, you may sit there and disagree with all that I just stated. READ BETWEEN THE LINES. The female has to give you a leeway in order for you to take it there. If at no point does a female discuss her personal life, or inquire about yours, she is not interested. If I call you sir or Mr. Please stop calling me honey or baby, or beautiful, it's uncomfortable. Most importantly, if the meeting is designed to discuss a particular project/event, that is what the soul of the discussion should be about. I'm just speaking from my perspective, so if a man has gone through it too, then by any means, tell the aggressive female to "kick rocks." Okay, maybe not that, but something alongs those lines in a more adequate way. But then again, it could get more complicated as there are some persistent individuals. It can get difficult because you try to not to be mean, and one tries to say no in a polite way, and the other person just doesn't know how to take a hint. What happens then? Middle fingers go up!!! Avoid that last advice. Is not what I would do. It all boils down to doing what you need to do, firmly & professionally, so you remain in a positive space. No one has the right to make any woman or man feel uncomfortable. DEUCES!